
REBEL UTERUS
Trying to stare my infertility in the face and work out what happens now.

Ending a Wanted Pregnancy Was The Hardest Decision Of My Life
My husband and I still find it hard to talk about our termination for medical reasons, partly because of the deep conflict it created...

A Positive Pregnancy Test
My husband and I thought we would have to stop trying in August 2018, for the sake of our marriage. But slowly, our white-knuckle terror...

Should I Give Advice To Younger Friends?
At the end of a few years doing battle with infertility I feel old, sad and, dare I say it, a tiny bit wise. Wisdom is not something you...

Miscarriage
When I look back to the few weeks of my life that I spent pregnant before my first miscarriage I’m overwhelmed by this sense of crazy,...

Why Can't I Stop Trying?
Everyone knows that trying to conceive is grim. Constantly counting days. The scheduled sex. Was that an implantation cramp I just...

Feeling Distant From Friends And Family
I always hoped that whatever happened in my life or theirs, my friends and I would have the empathy and imagination to walk with each...

Where Has All My Energy Gone?
If you’ve studied a bit of economics you’ll have come across the lump of labour. The idea that there’s a given amount of work needing...

Read This First
I started writing because I wanted to share the feelings I have experienced over the last four years. Of course I’ve shared them - some...